“Bismillahir rahmaanir raheem”
-in the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful-
I heard some whispering as I walked pass their room and continuous muffled giggling from the 2 of them who were quiet all this time in their room with the door slightly closed….
I assumed that they were busy finishing up their homework as I’d instructed them as soon as they arrived from madressah and they had some madressah work to do aswel…. Imtihaan was coming up and they needed to be jacked up before time.. I hate last minute studying.. Even though I used toi doi that when I was younger, I prefer that the kids learn before time so that they don’t forget their work because of the last minute pressure ..
At first I decided to leave them be and continue downstairs to do what I was going to do… I needed to check on the maid and put my rice up to steam.. Now that maghrib is a little earlier, we only eat after maghrib or else its too much of a rush..
But their persistent silent giggles got the better of my curious mind and so I quietly walked towards their door and pushed open quickly before they could hide whatever it is they were up to..
They both jumped out of shock and riyaad swallowed hard while both their faces turned serious…
After noticing their face, my gaze fell upon the newspaper that they were busy viewing..
“What are the 2 of you upto?” I shouted sternly..
Raadiya just stared at me without saying a word..
“Err.. We.. We…err..nothing..we were just looking at the newspaper….” Riyaad confessed
I was about to believe them, positively thinking that they’d been using the newspaper to cut pictures for some school homework that they’d been given when I noticed what was on the front page…
I was fuming… I grabbed the newspaper from riyaads hands leaving a tiny piece torn in it….
“What were you looking at in the newspaper riyaad? And talk the truth! Raadiya… I’m talking to both of you..” I screamed louder, hoping that their answer would settle my fears..
But unfortunately it didn’t…
Raadiya moved around and fiddled with fear…
And then she burst out crying….
“I need to go to the toilet….”
“GET!!!!”I shouted, pointing toward the bathroom… And turned to look at riyaad who was still staring at me..
“What were you looking at? This nonsense? What has gotten into the 2 of you over these past few days….?
In 4 days, everyday you 2 have been caught doing some kind of mischief… And before there has never been such a thing…”
Its true… Yes, they do ‘normal’ mischief like running in the house when they’re not supposed to and bickering with eachother and jumping on the bed or nagging me when I’m busy with something important… Things like that I could deal with… Its normal naughtiness that can occasionally be tolerated…
But looking at pictures of naked men and women is something I can not and WILL not deal with….
Especially because they know that they are doing something wrong.. Otherwise they wouldn’t be so scared that I’m standing right infront of them and caught them red handed….
I feel that kids are an amaanat.. They are our trust… They were not born knowing everything.. So we have to teach them…. Guide them!
Did nabi(S.A.W) not say that “every one of us are shepards and each shepard will be questioned regard their flock”….?
How do I answer to Allah about all this nonsense?
I needed some kind of guidance myself… Some answer… Before I reached the point where I needed to pull my hair out of sheer frustration…
But who? Who’s going to give me the advice I need? Who can I speak to that won’t judge me or my kids and I don’t have to feel embarrassed to tell them what these brats have been upto…?
Is Allah punishing me for always talking about the bad behaviour of other kids?
I once heard that we should never talk about someone else because Allah will make it such that we won’t die until we are made to commit the same act..
So is that what is happening here? Is Allah making my children such rubbish like those I’d spoken about?
Yes!!! I know who’ll give me the best advice… Just wait.. I need to speak to her…
Sister aziza.H has posted some important points of advice in the comments section of the previous post regarding the topic at hand… Feel free to check that out..
Only para 19 left to complete khatam..pls contribute so that we may start our next khatam for thul hijjah inshallah..