part 170:

‘Bismillahir rahmaanir raheem’
(In the name of Allah, the Most kind, The Most Merciful)

I now console myself thinking about the tortures that our beloved nabi(S.A.W) had been through….

He was also an orphan just like me….however I was lucky to still have my parents for so many years of my life…he didn’t…

Its the same story that we’ve heard over a million times that gives me solace today, but has it really sunk in?….think hard, and put ourselves in his place…

He went to ta’if to spread the message of Allah, yet he was ill-treated, mocked at and tortured…

He was pelted with stones to the extent that my beloveds feet were clogged to his shoes…imagine an entire town running after you…laughing at you….throwing dirt and stones at you….

Imagine bleeding and being abused and humiliated….

We as human beings feel so despondent and wonder what have we done to deserve this abuse..this torment….

But what did he do to deserve what he had been through?

He had done nothing but be the best example to mankind…he had done nothing but show compassion…he had done nothing but love and teach us the greatest of manners…

When Allah puts us through difficulties, its not because He hates us or wants us to suffer…He does it because he loves us, to make us stronger and for our ultimate reward in the hereafter…

Yet we curse and want to take revenge..we want to take matters into our own hands…

But what did he do?he cried for the hidayat(guidance) of mankind…he cried for those very people who had oppressed him…

Surprisingly ismail came home in a good mood….but that’s just the thing about him..oneday he’s in a pathetic mood and treats me worse than a door mat and the next day he’s all lovey dovey and can’t get enough of me….

Can a person not be stable in their life?and here they claim that I’m the one that’s bipolar…

Ismail is the type of person that gets influenced very quickly….depending on the company he’s around…that’s how he thinks and behaves..he doesn’t have a mind of his decide in which direction he’d like to move…

So when he was around aqeel…he was good and treated me well…if he was around deeni people, he’d talk about how great Allah is…and now that he’s around men that only talk about sport and entertainment and fast cars and money and anything materialistic…then that’s all he’s interested in…

I honestly don’t like these friends of his…they have no respect for their wives or any other woman for that matter..they insult their wives and talk all kinds of nonsense…I know this because ismail conveys what they talk about to me sometimes, but it actually annoys the crap out of me..because surely if they’re all talking about their wives, he’s probably talking about me too…

But how do I stop him from this?how do I get him to be punctual in his salaah again?to be more conscious of Allah?

He does perform some of his salaah, but not all and whenever he feels like..I’m so worried because salaah is of utmost cannot be missed, no matter what the circumstances are…

It is the first thing that we will be answerable for on the day of qiyaamah…

if our salaah are intact then hopefully Allah will have mercy on us and not take us into account for the rest of our deeds…

Its like when we’re steaming a pot of biryani…to test if our biryani is steamed well, we fEel a few grains on the top and judge from there that the rest is done..

In the same way, if Allah sees that we were punctual in our salaah, then maybe, just maybe…well hopefully, he’ll allow us to pass the great test and send us flying into jannah…

But if we fail in the first test which is salaah…what guarantee do we have that Allah will be happy with the rest of our actions…

Like in school, if we have an assignment to do and the first page of the assignment is not well presented, the teacher already lost hope in the rest of the assignment being up to standard…

Wait…that just gives me an idea of how to change the condition of this to bring myself to be a better muslim and how to bring guidance into everything that happens in my home….I just hope ismail will agree….well even if he doesn’t, the rest of us can still continue….



15 thoughts on “part 170:

  1. sister/in/Islam says:

    Ahhh !! Our beloved Nabi ‎​صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ sacrificed his whole life for us and this is how we show gratitude ..
    He was a sinless,masoom person , yet he prayed soo much – mainly for us to be saved from Jahannum !!

    May ‎​اللَّهُ make us the coolness of our Nabi ‎​صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ eyes and make us do only those deeds that r goin to take us into Jannat – ‎​​إنشاءالله

    Hmmm …. Biryani agen …. Lol
    Defntly friends play an important role in our lives. N shaytaan tries to sway us by using ‘peer pressure’ also !!
    May ‎​اللَّهُ make us have only those friends that remind us of ‎​اللَّهُ .. And remind us of our purpose in this world and our main aim/goal .. ‎​​​​آمين

    ‎​​​​جزاك الله for a wonderful post ..
    Monday morning BLISS .. Not blues – hehehehe .. ‎​​​الحمد لله

    Now !!! What is Fay deciding to do ?????? …..

    • Ameen. He really did go through so much, for the Ummah, For us.
      And we repay him by forsaking his blessed lifestyle. We have forgottoen how our Nabi’s (SAW) last breaths were Ummatee, Ummatee.
      He didn’t even know us, yet he didn’t want us to suffer. Yet, we read about Nabi’s (SAW) suffering over and over, without contemplating. We need to be reminded, over and over, even if we know the story of Ta’if.
      The only way to do justice to the Islam that he had brought, is by embracing the lifestyle of our beloved Prophet (SAW).
      Allah guide us. Ameen. JazakAllah, dear sister.

  2. Sister A. says:

    Our beloved Nabi (S. A.W. )Sacrificed his entire life ƒoя us his Ummah. His last words while on his deathbed were Ummati, Ummati. On da Đά̲ƴ of Qiyaamah wen everybody else will be saying Nafsi, Nafsi, he (S. A. W. ) ωɪℓℓ be da only one saying Ummati, Ummati. Ӑℓℓ dis only out of his love & concern 4 us his Ummah. Sadly, the Ummah has strayed away frm the lifestyle of Nabi (S.A.W.). Yet we claim to love him. Our actions betray our words. May ﷲ grant us ӑℓℓ Hidaayah & may HE put HIS love & da love of Nabi (S.A.W.)In2 ourhearts & grant us da tawfeeq of inculcating da Sunnah in2 our lives ​آمِيْن.

    • That’s exactly what I was going to write in my post….:) our beloved nabi’s every concern was us..his ummah…on his death bed and even on the day of qiyamah…how selfless is this great role model of ours…..
      Ameen to your beautiful dua..

  3. A says:

    It’s so true that we don’t realize the true value of our Nabi صلي الله عليه وسلم that he cried for this Ummah till his Mubaarak beard and the ground where he was became wet with tears
    Also once he told Hadhrat Aaisha رضي الله عنها that he made a special Duaa for he and she became so happy, thereafter he told her I made Duaa once for u n u become so happy but I make Duaa 70 tyms daily for my Ummah and today the Ummah is throwing his way of life away and adopting the ways of those who are our open enemies
    Seems like she’s going to start Taa’leem at home which is extremely beneficial ان شاء الله

    • Deff its sad how we are living..myself included..shaytaan is really good at deviating us..may Allah protect us and may He give us the ability to value the sacrifices made by our beloved nabi(S.A.W).ameen!

  4. What a wonderful post. How true when something happens to us, we ask why? What did we do for such a thing to befall us? But what we always fail to see is that it is a test from Allah. So many people neglect salaah nowadays, its so sad, imagone that qadha that you need to catch up, will you even be able to calculate how many salaah you missed and make up for it. May Allah guide us all and make it easy for us to follow the straight path. Ameen

    • Allah…those qadhaas..may Allah make it easy for us never to make any salaah qadhaa…even qadhaa is something that we will be punished for…how do we know how much of time we have left to even make up for all those missed salaah…

    • Allah…those qadhaas..may Allah make it easy for us never to make any salaah qadhaa…even qadhaa is something that we will be punished for…how do we know how much of time we have left to even make up for all those missed salaah..

  5. a95r says:

    Starting ta’leem? Even if ismail doesn’t join in, she should carry on, it will make a difference eventually.
    Friends… A person is on the religion of his friend… If you have good friends then you will be inclined to do good, however, if your friends are bad then that will have an effect on you and you will be influenced to do wrong.
    Hope all goes well.

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