“Bisillahir rahmaan nir raheem”
(In the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful)
Ismail and I had a chat about the whole cruise thing on the weekend and apparently at jumua’ah salaah the aalim brought this up and aqeel had decided to change his mind about it….
Ismail:”He wasn’t sure about how salma will take it because apparently she was over the moon about the whole thing when she found out…he was feeling hard to spoil her mood”
Me:”I’m sure she’ll be fine, I spoke to her also…she seemed abit down and upset at first…but salmas sensible and always wants to do things to please Allah…..so she’ll come around….I told her to rather go for umrah or haj instead…”
Ismail:”yeah that will be good…they don’t have kids as yet..its always easier to do your haj when there’s no kids to leave behind…”
Me:”yeah….unfortunately it would be really hard for us….(Sigh)…but when our time is right I’m sure it will happen inshallah…we can’t leave our kids…..it wouldn’t be fair to leave them with dadi and dada cos their old”
Ismail:”and I wouldn’t suggest you leave them with my mother….pft”
Thank god it came out of his mouth and not mine….lol….I’m sure if I had said it, he would have bit my head off….
Its strange how at first we are the ones telling them about their family and it causes so much of chaos and fights and never ending arguments….
And when we finally stop complaining, they see it for themselves…If only I had just not said anything from the beginning about his family, I couldve avoided a whole lot of misunderstandings and disagreements…
Nevertheless…what’s done is done….can’t undo the past…but I definitely have learnt to shut my trap about his family…instead I try to encourage him to go there or atleast phone and I’m trying my best to join ties again…but ismail is a very stubborn person and does only what he wants to…he doesn’t like being pushed…
So I say it once and then just forget about it ever again…
On monday morning I realised that ramadaan is just around the corner, I really need to get jacked up about my savouries….
Ismail doesn’t want to see food in ramadaan, he lives on savouries…so I have to make sure the freezer is quite filled up….and since I’m already 6 months in my pregnancy, by the time ramadaan comes, I’m going to be in my 8th month…..and its going to be a lot harder to do things…
Dr has already prohibited me from fasting….apparently because of the constant infections I’ve been getting and because of the miscarriage, it would be rather dangerous for both me and baby…but I’ll see how it goes when ramadaan comes…
I can’t not fast…ramadaan is just not the same if you can’t fast….I’ll feel terribly guilty even though Allah gives a pregnant permission to catch it up later…
the dua of a pregnant woman however is accepted, and I’ve been making as much dua as possible…
I had the radio on the other day on the mums and baby program and I heard the sister saying that every good thing that an expecting mum does is regarded as ibaadah(worship) and we are rewarded extra for it…
How merciful is Allah…..He is All-Aware that carrying this little being inside of you is absolutely no easy task, therefore he rewards us every step of the 38-42 weeks of gestation….
I was busy in the kitchen when dadi came in
Dadi:”assalamu alaykum beti…..very early busy as usual….what you baking my child?”
Me:”wa’alaykum salaam dadi….(Giggle)….I decided to start some ramadaan preparation so I’m busy making a pie dough today…”
Dadi:”beti are you crazy?you cannot roll pie dough in your state…….”
Me:”so what dadi?no pies in ramadaan?ismail will die if there’s no pies in ramadaan”
Dadi:”that’s the problem with us nowadays…we’ve made ramadaan all about savouries…..that we’ll ‘die’ if we don’t have it…”
Me:(laugh)”I don’t mean it like that….I know its not anything to do with islam….I know its just custom for us to do all of this…but it actually makes life so much easier during ramadaan…because our freezers are stocked up, we don’t have to spend so much of time in the kitchen, we can have extra time for extra ibaadah..”
Dadi:”there’s one aunty that makes pie doughs and savouries…we’ll buy the pastry beti….please..you young girls think you know everything, but ask us..we’re old and we learn from experience..you don’t look after yourself now…you’ll suffer later….”